Posts in Life
courage, dear heart

If you asked me to describe myself, "fearful" is not a word that immediately comes to mind. Cautious, perhaps. Careful, definitely. But fearful? Of course not.

Back in September of 2016, I lost my job. It comes as a surprise to a lot of people because, beyond a small circle, I didn't really talk about it. Though I hadn't loved my job, it was still an unexpected thing that took a fair amount of time to process. I wound up spending the next 2 1/2 months unemployed, which had both its advantages and disadvantages.

When anything in your life takes an unexpected turn, it's only natural to step back and take stock of where you've been, where you're headed, and if there are any changes you want to make.

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my "best life" is not about me

I have a board on my Pinterest account titled "inspire // good words."

With quotes from theologians and Scripture sprinkled through, it is primarily filled with those encouraging and, yes, inspiring statements like "You're always one decision away from a totally different life" and "If you know you can do better...then do better."

We love those sentiments, don't we? Especially around this time of year, when everything seems fresh and new and you have 365 days of possibility staring you right in the face. We make goals and resolutions and plans. We say this will be the year we finally do X, Y, or Z — lose the weight, organize the house, find the guy, the list goes on and on.

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the weight of your own life

From a fairly young age, I was what you might call an overachiever.

Simultaneously blessed and cursed with an interest in and aptitude for a variety of different things, combined with an inclination to please everyone in my life, I threw myself headfirst into, well, everything. I played piano and did sports (yes, plural) and theatre and dance. I was in the choir at church, at youth group on Wednesdays, in Bible study on Thursdays, and AWANA on Sundays, where, of course, I learned all the regular verses, plus the extra ones, and also played on the AWANA Games and Bible Quizzing teams.

It wasn't until high school that someone told me I might have a problem with overcommitment, but even then, I didn't really listen.

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why I want an instagram worthy life

These days, we talk a lot about social media.

There's entire dialogues surrounding what is and what isn't acceptable to post on social media and at the same time, there's a certain authenticity that is often lacking from those perfectly curated Instagram and Pinterest feeds we consume day after day.

It's easy to fall into the trap of comparison, wondering why your life is so mundane and boring because of what you see friends and colleagues posting online.

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"I'm here"

"I'm here."

Lately, whenever someone asks me how I'm doing, that's the best response I can usually come up with — "I'm here." Not fine or good or happy or tired or whatever. Just here.

I'm in the midst of one of the busiest seasons of my life. On some levels it's beautiful and lovely and exciting because a lot of really good and wonderful things are happening in my life and in the lives of people I love. But on more levels, it's emotionally, physically, and mentally exhausting and I'm finding myself completely and utterly spent.

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don't rush through your life

If you're anything like me and the vast majority of Americans, you're a fairly busy person.

When I moved back to Northern Virginia in April, I started a temp job to hold me over while I looked for a full-time position that would mesh well with this current season of my life. That temp job put me in a high-rise office building on the corner of a busy street in the middle of downtown Washington D.C. I took the metro to and from work every day, squeezing in tight and getting nice and cozy with my fellow commuters.

After a few days of what would become my daily commuter for over three months, I noticed something — everybody was rushing.

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